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hi beautiful :3 it is officially 365 days of being with a dumbass named minjae park, who's also the most precious human to exit. well.... 367 bc it's the 6th now as i'm typing this... >_< i'm sorry i'm trying to make this as perfect as i can possibly make it so BARE WITH ME PLS </3 hh. bfuhrjkro ,,TW !! lots of simping, being cheesy, being affectionate, being emo, being mean and basically a whole roller coaster of random emotions thru out this carrd </3 so don't say i didn't warn you

starting off with an i love you :> bc i don't say this as often as i should. and i'm sorry about that. i'm sorry if / that i'm failing to show you how much i love you and how much you actually mean to me, so i hope all this can show that to you >_< i love you i love you i love you , i love you so much. IM TRYING NOT TO CRINGE AT MY HOW CHEESY && LOVEY DOVEY IM SOUNDING RN BUT IM FAILING MISERABLY CRIES TT </3 hhhh. pls don't cringe i'll cry. no but like srsly fr tho i do LOVE YOU like alot. alot alot alot alot. like this big inserts my pp like huge vv big. nods. i lob you alot ok ??????? like with all my heart and soul I LOVE YOU don't ever fucking doubt it or i'll do something that i don't have to say rn but i will surely do it when or if i have to ):< yes i'm threatening you. be scared. ddd growls. if you ever need assurance or if you're doubting or hesitant about something pls tell me so that i can stop your stupid little head from overthinking sm </3 i don't and won't find you annoying so don't be scared to ask me if you need to clear up any/something ok ? ok. nNDSNDIODODJOEHDIENPEJKOPEW;L random panic mode. i love you once again ): :GAH: :dword: && if you're ever up for a rant or just talk about literally anything, you know where to find me <4 . . . i love you ( again ) bitch >ᴗ< vv much.

HAPPY 12 MONTHS BABY (:< EEEKK i genuinely can't process the fact it's been an year with your dumbass. like it feels like i met you 3 months ago at the same time it feels like i've known you my whole life- i'm rlly thankful and happy that we've got to last this long and for how far we've come tgt despite of those 6 months that we won't be talking about <3 thank you 4 sticking around with me and 4 being by my side thru everthing, i don't know how you've been so patient with me esp with the longass hiatus we've taken- BUT I'M STILL GRATEFUL FOR IT REGARDLESS. smooches you. you are amazing. pastes a sticker on your sixhead. i lov u . let's be eachother's strength and light on the hardest and darkest days :C let's hold hands and get thru everything tgt. let's not let eachother go thru anything alone. i hope you know you don't have to put on a mask and fake yourself around me. if you're feeling upset or hurting, i hope i'm someone you can come to and vent it out and get comfort from. please don't ignore and push those feelings away and pretend to be okay. when i say i love you i mean i'm here for everything. not just the pretty and sweet moments and days. i'm here for the not so pretty ones too, the rough and bad days. i'm here for you no matter what. i wanna be the safe and comfort place for you when you need it the most too. you don't have to go thru anything alone bc you're not alone. please remember that. i'm here, your biggie bear is always here for his baby panda :<

i'm trying my best to express everything i wanna say and feel rn in words but i'm not doing a very good job </3 it's currently 5:45 am and i haven't got any sleep and i have my math exam at 11:30 which, i didn't study at all for either and i'm stressing about it :] so i'm sorry this is all over the place bare with me </3

i won't lie when i say this bc in all honestly it still does make me get all gloomy and shit when i think about our old days, and i'm sure you do too. but like you said, our change shows how we've also grown and matured from the people we were back then && and i think that's great <4 there's always a positive with the negative. and the way our relationship changed doesn't necessarily have to be ' negative ' or a bad thing now does it ? we may not be the same as before but we still made it, right ? we still love eachother the same, right ? so i think we'll be just fine. we can grow even closer and be even better than old kaimin <3 it's not the end of us, rather the end of one chapter, to the next one <(￣︶￣)> DDIJSKLS idk what i'm trynna say but ygm right </3 let's make even better and sweeter memories this year altho it's nearing to the end already >;; let's move into a mushroom house and fr adopt a pochacco and make a fairytale of our own >< we can grow a liddol garden and plant carrots and other yummy fruits and veggies too :> it'll be
our own little cottage. aNDDDDD let's go on our first date soon as well </3 hhhh. an year tgt and not a single date huh, sobbing noises sniff sniffl

short letter break for u to go drink water <: drink water before u continue to read or kai will b vv mad. did u drink water yet ? pats ur head and smooches ur lips , good boy

mmmhmm yes, let's have a small restart. let's stop going on and on about how upset we are about 2020 kaimin and actually try to bring a change. a better one. let's let go of everything from 2020. not forget about them, just letting them go. but before we do that, i want to say something ; don't feel pressured to text back quickly or match my exact energy pls. just reply whenever you feel like it with whatever energy, based on your mood. it's okay to not always be available, self-time and staying away is much more important than forcing yourself to be here when you don't want to be :) JUST KNOW EVEN IF IT MAY TAKE YOU A WEEK OR EVEN A MONTH OR MORE TO RESPOND BACK ILL STILL WAIT FOR YOU BC I LOVE YOU. mhmhmhm so yea, to a new kaimin era , taps my banana milk with yours , cheers ଘ(^ᵕ^)ଓ

now just a random brain/thought dump bc this is going no where and it's an absolute mess, so if you're still reading this til this part then,, then idk. draws a heart on your cheek, i love you. hmmmmmm it is now 6:13 i feel so tired,,,, i was planning to make this ' professional ' emotional too but i simply couldn't do it. HI it's now 12:51 as im typing this i finished my math test and i did horrible to say the least but that's ok bc jungkook said skl doesn't matter so that's exactly what i'm gonna live by. okay anyways <: ISSIT WEIRD THAT I STILL RMBER THE EXACT WORDS THAT YOU PUR ON YOUR BIO WHEN WE FIRST STARTED TALKING- like a day after of calling eo dude and bro i somehow found a soft spot for you </3 and then we started being affectionate and then boom ,, 4-5 days later we gave ourselves to eo BHSKALS it's kinda funny how we're still dating when we rushed things so quickly- not that i regret any of it but yeah :") " stan kaimin for clear skin two sparkle emojis " i think.......... or wassit " stan kaimin bc we're cute two sparkle emojis " IDK CRIES. but yes that. it was precious >_< hmmm i feel like i'm making this too long so i'm gonna end it here <4

i love you. happy one year of bullying, loving eo, stupid fights and no going on dates ( issok we r just social distancing ) again <3 thank you 4 everything ):

ps. i was gonna make a youtube playlist but the 50 element thing came so i couldn't do it >:c ok bye

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